Gray Timber Wolf.
My third spirit animal has been quite elusive. She shows up from time to time so I know She is still there, but always from a far.
From the moment I learned about Her (which, in itself, felt as if it happened before She was ready, and it was definitely by accident) I understood that there was some extra work I needed to do in order to know Her. Maybe even to prove my credibility in order to know Her. I felt such a longing for this energy that is a part of me, yet I do not have access.
And finally, we spoke. I felt the connection, and with that last piece in place I felt whole. And for the first time, I learned her name.
I slept well that night, and when I woke, although desperately scrambling to recall it, I couldn’t’ find Her name.
It is like I have the essence of the name, but not the word to perfectly fit. And then I heard Her voice. “I took it back from you.”
“Why?” I asked in utter perplexity.
“You are not Ready. Make a connection with the tribe, then I will give it back to you.” She said.
*For those of you who do not know, I live in Traverse City, MI, and there is a reservation nearby. But this “quest” (for lack of a better term) is a different story.
She gave me this challenge, not as a ‘condition to Her affection’, but as a tool I can use to identify my own readiness. (And I did not realize this myself, until I wrote it here)
Where does this stand now? There has been almost no contact for over a year, I almost forgot She was still with me.
I was driving home from a trip down state. The fog was thick, and I was driving 10 miles per hour below the speed limit. As I came over a slight hill, I saw a place where I went into a small valley between two hills. There was an eerie line I crossed where I went below the fog between these two hills. And into the center of the road, walked a very large timber wolf. My Timber Wolf. I had NEVER seen one in person before. I started to slow down as to not hit Her, and she turned, looked me in the eye, bowed Her head slightly, turned to casually walk off. This incident was particularly strange to me because there wasn’t enough time for Her to do all of that, before I would hit her at the speed I was driving, yet, it was not even a close call.
But I know for sure, She is with me.